If I have one moment of Insight about my own person life, none of you are responsible for my pathways of memories, or my hippocampus pulling all memories integrated and forward for me to write about today. My experiences are about my life and not for you to interfere with, or try and convince me they are wrong. It just is. This is my life, my responsibility and my share with you and take it for what it is.

Since 2015 when I saw our children being bullied from Racism and Anarchy I have been speaking up. Our children need to be cared for. If you or I are alive it is my responsibility to be honest, to be kind, to be forgiving, and certainly Politically respond to a request for a Policy for women and Children needing a piece of paper for health, if they are raped. You have to be kidding right?

In health when a child is raped, you speak with care, kindness, having a listening ear, for what they should need to support them and with as much warmth and health as you can possibly muster from inside your God loving bodies. The hugs should flow with compassion, and empathy, if they allow you in at all. You do not give health by asking for a piece of paper to sling around their neck as if they are the criminal, or  the incriminatory of bad behaviour, or you never ask of the rapist to give a child a paper saying I raped you, there go and get health. Can you imagine Prince Andrew of the Royals giving Virginia a paper saying, you go and get health now Virginia, because now I am finished with you. Tell me how is this paper thing put forward by Politicians and business legal in any way? You are blaming the victims for rape that they did not commit on themselves, just like you did when you blamed the parents for the shootings of their kids; the victims running across your borders for help and dying in the waters of the river;  your blaming the kids for being abducted; your blaming the kids for being victims of a virus; and your blaming Pfizer for being a vaccine we were suppose to take for our own health; and you are blaming vaccines for the death of one women that was vaccinated with an Astrazeneca Vaccine. It was not Pfizer, and further she got blood clots from a vaccine that in fact could have been caused by the needle not being asperated, and put into a vein, instead of it being asperated and put into a muscle. No one listened when Doctor Campbell warned you that that could happen. The woman got blood clots and died after months of headaches and dealing with blood clots. Not Pfizer’s fault.

Any male who thinks of himself as just having a right to grab a female’s pussy or the idea that that is even any kind of a wish or want of a woman, is sickness within itself. That mind is in a President that was elected by the People. Can you really not see females in a better light than this? Can I ask what planet are you from? I want to stay away from your neighbourhood as far as possible. Who is your poor wife? And yet you were voted in by the people of the most Powerful country in the world.

God comes from within, whether in Agape form, Erotica form, or Amour form. God is not female or male, but biochemistry, that belongs to every homo sapien on earth that lives in forgiveness, lives in Mercy, love, kindness, compassion, empathy, and prayer. It is a group of Laws of Nature and is based on “Oneness” of human beings on Earth, as All homo sapiens who Love know. It is not something that is not reachable. It requires you to treat others as you would have them treat you. That is Loving, compassionate, and empathetic prayerful homo sapiens. God is Love and you know that as 1 John told you that in the Bible, and John is Jesus’s best friend. He was thrown out of Asia Minor for preaching Love to the masses. He was banned to the Island of Patmos where today he is honoured for Loving. Mary created God which is Love. Hello! But we all must comply. Anyone that says Government employees do not have to comply in spirit cannot possibly know God. Policies of Government and Spirit are suppose to be Loving your population.  Remember 1 John says, God is Love over and over again throughout the pages of John.

It is true that Music lights and lifts the spirit, when you are adults, we do not just live by music alone, and even musicians have responsibility to others outside themselves.

I still believe in rules being made to follow for the sake of the whole group, because it is the best for everyone concerned or involved. I believe that communities are not made just for genders, or not made just for Politicians, or just for Politicians to gain status,  or personal wealth, personal pensions that are so far above everyone else that the worker bees are put in jeopardy for survival and debts that are unaffordable. We the worker should have decent incomes that equal output of costs to remain alive and adapt to our environment of health. There are costs of normal people that are 50.00 a month for heat, and yet some are collecting 375,000 dollars a year for income for the rest of their lives, doing basically what I am doing. That is looking at policies and policy changes necessary. I am getting 800.00 a month to live on. This is basically $58,000,oo dollars a month for one person called Trudeau, and $800.oo a month for one person called Cardinal. Do tell where is equality in those numbers? Health policies, immigration policies, and border policies when a Endemic is going on, in 2023, and not finished, but the worker bees must go on. The immigration polices allowing people to walk across our border and be driven here by Human traffickers that are making money from humans being sold a bunch of baloney.

Democracy….is to be one vote for each individual tax payer. Not China, and not people not paying taxes, and not people of China who have no right funding our Prime Ministers in Canada, whether with museums, houses, or any part of the tax payers history. Trudeau’s have no right to be accepting this money from China, who released covid 19 from their Wuhan lab, and sat silent for 3 years about their part of this virus being a killer for around the world. Trudeau in office accepts the money from China while his population dies.What the hell kind of a leader is that of a population of people suffering? Do I read this right? China has no right whatsoever interfering in our supposed Democracy. Tax payers money and votes put our hired government workers there to look after Canadians, not Chinese and Chinese do not get to give money to our government employees. That is  level of deceit that is unbelievable to this Canadian ear. And no one seems interested in dealing with this issue of self interest instead of Canadian Interests. Our Representatives are suppose to be ethical, Value driven of his own population, and Morally sound. We are a morally, ethically Value driven Society ordinarily. This country has so many levels of taxes that we pay to keep this country going, right from boards, community representatives and taxes for our own communities, Provincial taxes for our Provincial roads and bridges and employees and Federal taxes for Federal roads, railways, transportation, water health, food production supply and demand, and our taxes are to count for our country’s health. Not just Trudeau’s families welfare. Then on top of this we pay for First Nations just to be here, and now Climate Change. Justice Matters for tax payers. What about rules of ethics? Why does Trudeau’s family name mean more than the Cardinal name if we are equal?

In a country that we considered a Democracy till 2023, you either see us as equal, or you have a slave population working just for their bit of food and a warm blanket and for wealthy. And I can say, it appears we are working just for wealthy. He is a traitor to some, and a hero to others. So lets look at Policies not being followed that allow other countries to ask of favor with millions of dollars being given to one family in Canada. This I can assure you is not pleasing to Canada and it’s Democracy at all. Allowing people to be trafficked across our borders, allowing himself a plane, holidays, and photo ops that are 4 hours there by plane, and 4 hours back by plane and all the fuel being used, and yet I the tax payer who use little am being blamed by the children for using too much of the resources. Hmmmm! These are human beings that these other homo sapiens are using for their own pockets stuffings of money. How is this humane? Putin Killing Children at 1 day old, Trump can grab our little girls pussies because he feels entitled, Trudeau feels entitled to accept a million dollar gift for his Father’s museum from China who released a biological manipulated virus onto the world, and stood silent about it for 3 years, and yet Trudeau bent over backwards, giving the PPE to China, rather than his own Medical workers who needed PPE for protection against the virus. Where am I but Hell on Earth?Further I was accused of having Bipolar by a Canadian government employee,  the head of Health, Dr. Tam, when in fact I had never ever been diagnosed with anything more than a bad case of anxieties from rape as a Child, but somehow I became a bad guy. Why?

Standing up for the children being abused and bullied becomes more and more evident of why, daily as I look at who was bullying. If ever you doubt that All people have the right to life, the right to Justice, please do not doubt me as I struggled with what was going on for 8 years of writing, doing research, selling myself way short of what the hell I was seeing. Children being sold on black markets for body parts, Children being abducted and used for sex, apparently part of our Economy. Prostitution is not part of our Economy ethically, and do Prostitutes pay taxes. I think not, and do they charge GST, or PST, and might give STD’s or PTSD to wives who are at home. The underground goings on against our babies, and the governments trying to hide it. HOLY HOLY HOLY.

We cannot allow abuse against our Children or abuse of other children around the world as this is immoral what is going on in 2023.

A woman burned herself to death right under my bedroom and damn near took my husband and me with her. She would not quit using marijuana, and dulling her feelings trying to survive this hell we live today in 2023. But Trudeau’s pushing of Marijuana as a product to make money for our country, by selling drugs to our Canadian people to keep them drugged and calm while they commit suicide and die not knowing why. The night the fire alarm went we jumped out of bed our hearts racing, because I knew who it was. It was her, and I had called out to the board, to my husband to anyone who would listen, because somehow I knew what was going to happen. The smoke rolled and tumbled through the building as we got out and saw the smoke becoming worse and worse as we drove away. I was so upset over this happening as I had warned so many. No one ever believes me. She is gone now the poor thing, and what a shame. She was such a young women. Damn. This young women is someone’s child and daughter. Did she ever consider our lives when she lit up and filled the non smoking building with smoke nightly and then would lie when I would try and get it looked after. She killed herself and other’s relationship by doing it. When you live in a Condo, you have to recognize, what I do and what others do effects us all.

Then Colin being diagnosed with PTSD after working at Firefighting and Investigations for 38 years, he finds out his heart is starting to act up from a left bundle branch block, as his heart on the left does  not beat the same beat as the right side. They are not in a synchronized beat. O.k. He also has Sleep Apnea, and kicks me like I am some kind of football at night, So after many tests, many hours of counselling because of course I am the problem, I left, but only to find out when away, he had a Stint operation coming up with his heart, and that most likely the heart was not working at it’s full potential making oxygen shortages the issue, because boy he was not thinking logically at all. His anxieties, his attitude, his depressions, his lack of even being able to understand anything had slipped back to Childhood. But we pressed on, and then going into get his stint, a HEADON FRIGGING COLLISION. Hello. After the collision, I sat stunted in the car not wanting to leave it. But my poor husband was sitting there after rising so far into the air, even with seat belts on, because we were going 70 on a Parkway, that required 70. Now we had to heal from an accident too, as the colour of purple, blue, and a horrible yellow did not suit my dress ware at all. My chest, my stomach, my legs, my knees, still not healed completely, my arms bruised and sore, my ring broken, my glasses broken, and my silence. What a day, but after the hospital in Penticton checking us after the ambulance ride, we moved on to Kelowna where Colin had to go in for his operation the next morning after the accident. Of course, so we thought. He went in to the operating room but then it was found out he only had 26% of his heart even working. It would have to be 4 bypasses now, so out he came, home we went with our rented tin canny type of car, and just healed and rested for 3 months until the bypass. Daily writing and dealing with so many issues and prayers, and sharing stories, keeping my cool some days and other days doing nothing but crying. But be damned if the kids were going to be without my help. I was so sick and tired of all the shitty stuff going on. I might have been a foot ball for many years, but something happened in 2015, when being a football became a pester to me. Inbetwixt  the Headon, the stint operation, the bypass, I had to help him heal, so he would be in good condition for the operation coming up. We read and spoke little for 3 months, but I was just here making sure he ate properly, slept properly and dealt with the Insurance, the household bills, the ICBC and all their phone calls, and nurses galore and Doctors offices galore for tests. It was all the little things, like collecting the Rogue stuff after it being crumpled into an accordion type look. My poor little rogue. It was renting a new car called a Morano, so I felt secure enough to even drive. If I had had my way I would have bought a tank, or a semi trailer to feel safe, but Colin said no. My glasses had to be replaced and my beautiful garnet ring Colin had bought me years before had no stone. I felt so unstable for quite some time, and even my Marge Simpson bun on top of my head was unbalanced it seemed. I could not lift my arms up to do it properly, but eventually I kept hoping. Colin today has 2 hearing Aids as he lost his hearing totally from nerve damage to the ears in the car accident. So now he tunes me out by turning up the tv in his hearing Aids, because he can. You hear a woman talking and talking to him, and I watch with envious feelings of her, as I see him listening and me sitting there saying, “C o l i n  can you please answer me.” No! He is gleefully listening to some broad on the telee listening to some voice he loves instead of mine. His new glasses have become an issue, because now his eyes are acting up and he needs another operation. Pretty soon I will not even recognize the man. Each day I kiss him on the forehead and say, “thank you dear just for breathing.” I do not care about whether you love me or not, just breathe, because after 38 years, you are my addiction.” He will always be part of my life whether love is there or not. When you have shared 47 years together as good friends, it is really hard to ever even see yourself without just saying hi to this person, you committed your life to, in Love, one day, so many years ago. It becomes thank you for just breathing. I am the type of woman, if he dies before me, people will have to stand his Urn beside me by my chair watching t.v. God I am a really sad case for a human being. LOL! So you see losing our little girl gender to CIS, benefits not, a person like me. I love the xy’s because basically they do act as my behaviour of addiction. I need someone to share my life with. I do not like being alone. So do I need to say what I think  of the Covid 19 and the Coup in my Democracy? I swear I am like Don Knotts inside.  I honestly am not a fighter. I am a lover, and if you scare me away I will go , but I soon will find another as I need another to share my life with, as I am no loner, as I have been alone all my life, and it is full of bullshit. But one thing I know for certain, if Colin ever wants another women in his life, he can go, but we remain friends. I will not make one more enemy in my life. Not one. Facts of my insights. And I know that James Taylor had he talked to me, would have seen that quickly, but I did need someone to help me with support to fight for the children. God bless the Children and Its her World Too Sold me on James Taylor as it should you. I just do not know how to fight without support. Colin is gone into his world.

(1) God Bless our Children

(2) Save the Children

(3) Food Is Essential

(4) March for our Lives

 

Loving you All……Carolyn D Hogarth…..The Writer and Sharer of My Insights. Should I apologize for being me? I honest to God do not know.